2002 was the year my life forever changed… divorced and shortly afterwards my ex became a paraplegic. That year, I had learned to scrimp on everything and live off very little. McDonald’s was an infrequent dining experience, free videos from the library saved a trip to Blockbusters and the hefty $3.69 rental fee, garage sale shopping became an art form, and trips to Target were only made to acquire necessities. My kids were five and six. We were team, poor but surviving. I thought for sure I would remarry and pretty quickly,but my plans were not God’s plans.The financially worry was taken off the table but he never let my potential husband pull up a seat to join me, even for dessert. By 2010, when my first born entered high school I made a deal with God, “I get it. You want me to stay single. Fine. I’ll take your deal and raise it by two chips… but by the time I’m 50 I don’t want to be dating.”
Well, this week I turned 50 … and without a husband in sight. I thought God forget to deal me my cards. Before I could blow out my birthday candle a friend reminded me , “Lisa once again you were not specific with your prayers to God .You said you did not want to be dating and you’re not!” The room of friends giggled like schoolgirls at a sleepover.
As I blew out my candle I was eight years again with braces and pigtails making a wish. I know it is bad luck to tell your wish but my wish doesn’t need any luck. You see, I no longer wish for a husband (Oh I still want one )… but I wished that I keep surrendering to HIS Plan. I see God has granted me all my wishes in HIS time. The beach. The mountains. And good friends.
I know God loves me and knows my heart. There are no more deals since I am waiting for the real deal( and so should you!) Proverbs 20:24 ” I don’t know where the path is leading but I know who is leading the path.” I am 50 and happy. No deals. No wishes. Only God’s whispers. I will bravely cross the bridge to the other side and willingly walk to where God is leading me. Can you be brave enough to wait and listen to the Whispers Within?
February 13, 2017 at 7:50 pm
Happy Birthday! 50 is an amazing milestone in so many ways. And praise God for His gentle spirit that continues to guide. Your thankful heart is an encouragement to me!
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February 13, 2017 at 11:34 pm
Thanks a bunch. Hope you & Ryan are happy & healthy.
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February 13, 2017 at 11:58 pm
Happy 50th Lisa. Thank you for sharing your experiences. Waiting is a spiritual discipline we must all learn so I will wait for God’s plans to manifest in my life. God bless you Lisa and may He grant you the desires of your heart!
Rolain
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February 14, 2017 at 10:23 am
Rolain~ The waiting sometimes purely stinks~ especially on valentines day! Know you are loved! Thank you for your kind sentiment & WISHES! Blessings to you & a big V-day HUG!
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February 14, 2017 at 10:01 am
Bless you Lisa!!
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April 17, 2018 at 8:52 am
This is very strong and inspiring:)
Happy belated birthday…
Hope to see more of your writing in coming days.
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April 19, 2018 at 6:42 am
Aww thanks . I only post when I feel the HUGE whisper . Blessings to you . I will check you out !
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